After having such a bad experience with the dermatologist at the HF Troy campus, my rheummy recommended to go to the New Center clinic. She told me they are familiar with lupus. They are only open once a month on Fridays. So I thought, what the hell why not try this. So I did…
First, let me say they (the staff) were very friendly and didn’t push me along. They first person I saw was the resident and she was very attentive. She listened to my medical history and asked lots of questions too. After she and I talked, she came back with the doctor and doctors-in-training and my rheummy’s backup doctor. It was very crowded in this little room. Anywho, the doctor looked at my scalp and my hands. Of course, my sores were gone. Luckily, I did take a picture but it wasn’t good but he got the idea. So the sores on my lips are going to be treated as cold sores since I am on immune suppressants. I haven’t picked up my Rx yet but he told me that the side effects are very minimum (headache and sleepy). But it was so nice to have someone medically listening instead of pushing me along. I have to follow up in 2 months to see how I am doing on this cold sore antibiotic.
So today is a good day, medically and physically. I love these good days since I can do things that I normally don’t. I think my fitbit helps me move too with these solo challenges.
Thanks for reading and stopping by. I do appreciate all the good thoughts to help me and other Lupus warriors get along. Now….I am going to find me some chocolate and enjoy this afternoon before the rain comes!
I know it’s been a while since I have done this. I have been dealing with very sore hands and fingers that didn’t allow me to do much. It’s not a great picture but those little sores that were on my fingers made life hell. I went to a dermatologist (dermi) and she went off the deep end telling me it was blood clots thrown by my heart, I needed a TEE scope and $100 of ointment that didn’t do jack. Clearly, I was upset and went to this heart specialist who took about 14 viles of blood. After all that, no one called to tell me what it all means. Thankfully Henry Ford has MyChart and I can kind of follow and ask questions. So end result to this……..Heart is great. Well that’s good news but why do I have this on my hands?!
I ended up calling my Rheummy. I told her about the debacle with the dermi and whatnot. Plus I told her no one gave me any insight on the blood work. She looked at it and said I was ‘normal’ with the blood work for a lupus patient. Then she put me on steroids to help with the inflammation. You know what happened? The steroids worked! A $3 bottle of little pills worked! I knew I should have went to the rheummy first! But now, I have almost full use of my hands and things don’t hurt as much, even when they are cold! YAY!
My other fun is my brace which I refer to it as Frankenfoot! I received it just before Christmas of 2016. I decorated it, as you can tell. It does help with longer walks and it keeps me stable but it gets heavy after a time. Who would of thought a piece of plastic would get that heavy? My next adventure is to hook up my driving assistant quickstick so I can do my own little errands and get the hell out of the house without depending on others. I’m grateful for people that do help me but there are times I just want to go to Taco Bell and get me some food and go home without disturbing others’ days. With my hands healing and nicer weather approaching, my mood has been better. So I need to get my independence back!
Next is our camping season! This I cannot wait. This will be the first summer without cancer treatments and I can enjoy without the side effects looming. I still get some but they are not as worrisome! One trip will be to the Porcupines (UP) so we have to cross the Great Mack bridge. I’m not a fan of it but you gotta do what you gotta do! I forget our other trips but we do have a few booked! It will be so nice to be able to eat and share laughs this summer. I can tell from last year’s pictures that I was feeling bad. I love taking pictures but there were few. I regret that but, again, not feeling well makes you just want to curl up and sleep.
So I think I caught up on everything. I’m hoping everyone is doing well! Take care and talk to you soon!
Today I went to Henry Ford’s Rehab to get my right leg evaluated. The PT guy, Ron, did all types of flexing and strength tests. Overall, I failed. I have barely any strength in my right leg and foot.
I also have a rx for an ankle brace to help with balance and to get me to walk ‘normal’ again.
Anywho, I start PT next week and I have to go twice. They are going to strengthen the muscles since they are weak. He told me that I will still have the neuropathy but the PT can help keep it from getting worse.
I have my EMG after thanksgiving and I really don’t look forward to that. The whole needle thing freaks me out.
So today I had my neurologist appointment. Last minute cancellation and I got it! WOOT!
Anywho, The doctor did the reflex, strength and vibration tests on my hands and feet. So weird not feeling anything on my feet. Still freaks me out. So the next step is a head MRI (BOOOOOO!) and an EMG (DOUBLE BOOOOOOOO!) Glad I still have some xanax left from prior MRI testing. Plus Fairlane has the open machine as well! YAY!
I still have the red bumps on my big toes and fingertips. Plus I still have the ucler on my roof of my mouth so eating is a challenge. I am seeing the dermi next week, Friday. This Thursday I get to see the dentist and cannot wait for that. This Lupus has weakened my teeth.
I don’t tell you all this so you can feel sorry for me. I really don’t want that. I want you to educate yourself on Lupus and know. And please do not tell me there is always someone else who has it worse. Well you know, this is my worse and I am honoring my own body and self. No one knows what it’s like in someone else’s shoes. Have empathy and compassion for each other. I know I forget sometimes to show kindness but we all forget at times.
I’m going to enjoy this day with the sunshine and 64 degrees in November! Remember to honor your own self and be kind to each other.
Last night I got to thinking about what my doctors actually do for me. Granted, I do have a couple of good ones that listen but do they….really?
Example, when I went to the ER beginning of 2016 due to inability to breath, all I was offered was an uncomfy bed, ‘normal’ tests and yet no closer to what the hell is going on with my body. I told the ER doc it is probably lupus flaring up and he had no idea what I was talking about. Awesome! So instead of sending me home, they sent me to Henry Hood for an EKG. I kept telling them you are not going to find anything but hey, it’s only my body. So of course, heart is healthy. I’m just done with doctors and how little they do help. I thought for sure they would help with my tachycardia or something. Nope, just go home and here’s the bill.
Now that I have new symptoms, I’m so leary of going to see another doctor. More tests to show nothing that I have to pay? Fuck that! I did get my CT done and no cancer was no where. But now, I have gas build up in my intestines making it painful to burp, moments of crazy BMs, and I have dropped down to 120#.
Tired of stepping on these legos but I guess I am getting used to the pain of the corners. So if you are wondering if I am in a good mood, chances are….no. I just want my normal life back when I could do things without feeling winded, or muscles sting, focusing is incredibly hard. If you talk to me and my eyes glaze over, I’m really trying to pay attention but I lost that battle. Now I just wait to see what other symptom is going to rob me of my freedom.
I follow a few blogs to see what’s going on and to get inspiration on write a new post. This one was a challenge but it is needed to be written down and for me to see it. We all need to be better to ourselves. I know I am constantly negative and for some reason, it is easier to believe the the good. So here are a few awesome things in my life that are my superpowers! 🙂
- I can adapt – Most of my young adult life, I worked at a temp agency. This means odd jobs, as well as, office jobs. Some of those jobs I never knew existed until I received my orders. This also is connected to my chronic illness. I was diagnosed in 2004 and it was a mourning time. After that, I had a wedding to plan, overtime to work and my life was going to change from single to married. I thought Lupus was going to keep me down but no, it just made me adapt to a new life. I still look back at my prior life but quickly look forward to now. I have a good group of doctors and great support group.
- I am curious about the people I see around me – When I go out, I always wonder about the person who is waiting in line with me or just passing me by. I wonder what their life is like, do they have heavy burdens, I wonder if I could comfort or help.I know there are millions of other with chronic illnesses and I would love to do anything in my spoon reservoir to help.
- Meet some incredible people – The Internet has introduced me to some folks who understand and are just plain awesome! Besides already having a great support from my friends at home, these people offer their spoon when I am in need and I do that for them as well. I never knew an Internet relationship can be so helpful and fulfilling. I would love to meet some of these great people as well to wrap my arms around and call them family.
- To enjoy life – For me, this is still a hard one but I do try. In the summer, we do camp. The preparation does cause me some anxiety but we camp with another couple and they do help ease my tension. No one person does everything. We share in it all. Every little aspect in life needs to be enjoyed. It’s those little things that make life worth it. A shared joke. A sunset/sunrise. Watching my dogs sleep. Baking cookies. All these moments are savored for me.
These are just a few that popped in my head but I know there are probably more. Life has definitely delivered some curve balls and I have missed a few. But the great thing, I have hit a couple and accepted where they went. I’m learning that life does have humor and love, I just have to look for it in everything.
Finally saw a Urologist today. Actually this doctor specialty is the female urology parts!
Anyways, when he first entered the room, he introduces himself (Dr. Richardson) and tells me that he is a hugger. I got to hug my doctor! Love that! So we discuss my problem and what not. I felt very at ease with him and not rushed into doing anything. So, of course, there was an exam to see what could be the problem. He thinks it is the outer area that is inflamed.
He gave me three things to do:
- Dance/meditate (MBSR). I wanted to learn how to meditate and maybe this will help my mind not be so concentrated on the pain. Pretty much, how he explained it is that I have to accept it. He is a no-nonsense doctor and told me it won’t be easy.
- I have to wash the urethra area with water or Epson salts. Well, I have water handy so that will have to do.
- He asked me to try the lidocaine 2% to see how I react to it. I did have estrogen and it burned so he wants to know how the lidocaine reacts.
So that is what I have to do at this moment. We are doing baby steps to see what happens. I’m so glad I made the appointment and glad my mom got to go with me. I feel a little at ease but I know I have to relax more and not let everything get to me.
The doctor has a thought that it could be Vulvodynia (Info on vulvodynia). I’m discovering all these new diseases that I never knew existed! How about that!?